went for hospital visits. we went there by bus. its embarrass to admit, but i am actually really afraid of taking bus -- bus phobic! ah well, i will have to overcome that because i still have to wait very long before i can have my own very car. sigh. so, on our way there, instead of sleeping, i was reflecting on many things.
for one, i think life is really very fragile. have been encountering so many deaths recently. and in the ward two days ago, someone just passed away right infront of me, after 30mins long of resuscitation. that makes me wonder, human is so powerless. and human is not any better than a robot. robot will not function without the battery/electrical supply. we are just like that too, once our heart stop beating, we will not survive as well. anyway, the experience was really traumatic, i still couldn't forget the face of the person, the last stare of him, and his groaning before death. but i guess i will have to learn to be emotional detached because i will be facing more of this in the future.
mom and dad went back to johor again to take care of grandpa. i can actually go back as well because i have break for today. but i am just too exhausted to travel here and there. grandpa's condition is getting serious. at his age, i know we cant do anything much. but i really pray that he will be alright soon.
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