a series of unfortunate events

The world may appear to be an unfriendly and sinister place
but believe me, there is much more good in it than bad
all you have to do is to look hard enough
the series of unfortunate events,
may in fact be first step of the journey.
~Lemony Snicket's, A series of unfortunate events~

sometimes, all things may seem to be ' not right ' . this is when you would have the feeling of helplessness. at this point, everyone will have the intention to give up, to let go everything.

recalling back this one year in uni, many of times i feel like giving up. i have always wondered, will all the hardships be worth it at the end of the day? afterall, what i want in life is to be happy and to be free from worries. why choose the difficult path? i guess, it is not a matter of worth it or not. life would not be complete without hardships. and it is all this experience, that makes me who i am today. and i realised, with each challenges that i faced, i emerge stronger.

and i am thankful to have optimistic friends around me, supporting me always with all the encouraging words, telling me that everything will be alright at the end of the day. no matter how hard is the situation, as long as you face it with all your heart, you will be able to overcome it eventually. how i hope i can grow to be more optimistic. this i must learn.

everyone is saying this:

let go and move on.

but i can tell you, it's not so easy! ( well , at least for me , or else i wouldn't end up in such a pathetic situation as now ) how i wish there is a 'delete' button or 'rewind' button in our life, that we can choose to remember things that we want, and the rest shall go to the recycle bin. but i guess, it is all this bits and pieces of memories, regardless whether it is happy or sad, sweet or bitter, that complete the whole jigsaw puzzle right?

i am starting to contradict myself. haha. anyway, i shall learn to let go. my dear friend who lend me this movie, a series of unfortunate events , we shall learn together :)

what you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened,
it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment.
and this is the moment that you can choose to make everything new.
right now.

and to add on, enjoy the moment! :)

portugal is playing against germany tonite. both are the teams that i like. argh!