falling. failing. and learning.

falling . failing .

they are inevitable in life.

it's how and what we learn from it that matters.

stand up.

i know i have to stand up myself.

it's been two weeks, my ankle still hurts when i go running today.

i guess, just like the heart, it takes longer to heal.

i read from a book, our body have all it needs to heal. oxygen, nutrients, water.

the healing process will take place automatically.

i know i am/was stupid.

i am exhausted.

of crying over my own stupidity.

i hope i can laugh at my own stupidity. soon.

learning. after falling. failing. so many times.

AUTOBIOGRAPHY IN FIVE SHORT CHAPTERS

by Portia Nelson

I

I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk
I fall in.
I am lost ... I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes me forever to find a way out.

II

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place
but, it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

III

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in ... it's a habit.
my eyes are open
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

IV

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

V

I walk down another street.

i started eating meat on thursday after a month of vegetarian diet. i guess it's not really hard to refrain from eating meat, not much of discipline needed, since i am not a ''food'' person as people called it. and thankfully, my prayers work :)

and now, i am going to refrain myself from going to facebook for the next 3 weeks. it's just the first day, but it's so hard. it's really torturous to not click on that webpage. i think, it's not easy to get detached from something, or someone. but i will try. that i promise myself.

why am i putting myself through all these? of not eating meat, of not doing things that i want to? i guess, sometimes in life, we ought to learn to look at the bigger picture. if there are sacrifices to be made, for ourselves, or for other people, we have to do it. for good.