it's mother's day today.
i really really really want to go home.
but i cant :(
the notes that are piling up, the reports that are piling up, the list of things-to-do is going on and on.
just this week, i didn't call my mom for 3 days. and she tried to call me. and coincidentally, my phone ran out of battery while i was in the ward at night. when i reached home at 11pm, saw so many missed calls and message from her. i felt so bad. that i made her worried.
i spent so much time in the ward, trying to understand the patients, trying to understand each disease better, comforting them not to be worried, while i leave the very person that love me worried.
this is just the beginning. and i am already like this. how will the next few years be like?
i always say that i am a family oriented person. REALLY? now i doubt.
i miss home so much :(
somethings in life are easier once we do it n times. like taking blood, inserting IV line. repeat repeat repeat and you will improve. i wish it applies for leaving home as well. but no, it's so hard to step out of the door each time. it never will be easy.
5 more weeks.
i really really really want to go home.
but i cant :(
the notes that are piling up, the reports that are piling up, the list of things-to-do is going on and on.
just this week, i didn't call my mom for 3 days. and she tried to call me. and coincidentally, my phone ran out of battery while i was in the ward at night. when i reached home at 11pm, saw so many missed calls and message from her. i felt so bad. that i made her worried.
i spent so much time in the ward, trying to understand the patients, trying to understand each disease better, comforting them not to be worried, while i leave the very person that love me worried.
this is just the beginning. and i am already like this. how will the next few years be like?
i always say that i am a family oriented person. REALLY? now i doubt.
i miss home so much :(
somethings in life are easier once we do it n times. like taking blood, inserting IV line. repeat repeat repeat and you will improve. i wish it applies for leaving home as well. but no, it's so hard to step out of the door each time. it never will be easy.
5 more weeks.
2 comments:
hello there, jia you! but don't burden yourself with things you cannot control.
womannnn! i havent heard from you for ages! we must catch up one day laa!!
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