sorry

Oh I had alot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I miss you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back.

Sorry~Buckcherry

somehow i just kept listening to this song recently. nope, i am not emo. i promised myself not to emo anymore. there are so many beautiful things in life waiting for us to be appreciated, why emo?

sunset that i captured in genting:)

did i mention that i just love the view of sunset and sunrise. just like waterfall, it gives me the serenity and makes me realize how beautiful our life can be :)

i know u wont be reading this, but here wishing u a blessed and happy birthday :)

change

The only constant is change.

Met up with many old friends recently. and many of them said that i have changed, in a positive way fortunately. I may not have realised the change, but if everyone says so, something in me must have been different.

sociable. optimistic. cheerful.

Do i really have all these qualities now?

optimistic? yes. many incidents that happened early this year have woken me up. life is too short for us to be wasted on being sad, or regretting on things that have yet to be done. i guess now, i don't get frustrated easily as last time. half a year has passed, going through all these incidents and letting them go is not easy. but, i grow up and learn a lot from all these experiences.

ice kacang, chocolates, park, jogging, sleeping, friends. they are my source of happiness now. losing something or rather someone that i love is heartbreaking, but i am grateful that i have earned many many other priceless things after that :)

you don't need to have the best of everything to be happy. to be happy, you just need to make the best out of everything that you have. and the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you cant go forward in life until you have let go your past. i have gained a lot from all this past incidents, it's time to let go. now.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human
and enough hope to make you happy.

Penang-Alor setar- Langkawi

I am back from the 7 days trip :) this time, visiting different places, with different group of friends, but still, is equally fun!!

15-7-08
first morning in penang, dimsum breakfast!! it was fantaliciousss!! i am just so in love with penang food.thereafter, we went to disted college to complete our COP- community oriented project. COP was quick and simple. we managed to finish the survey within half an hour and walk around the college compound to camwhore :P


next stop, ice kacang in new world park. ah, i cant help but to keep praising penang's food. the ice kacang is so nice. everyone just kept asking me whether i am happy or not. haha. my friends just know me well, ice kacang is my source of happiness :) have you seen icekacang with banana and other fruits? no? then you should go penang=)

ice kacang!

next stop, penang birdpark. no, we are not a fan of birds, but out of courtesy, we are 'obliged' to visit the birdpark, because it is owned by our dear friend kingston. haha :P but we did have fun there, learning more about birds :) thanks kingston!!

after the whole afternoon of birding around, we went to autocity to have our dinner at TAO. although our wallet were bleeding after that, it was worth it. the food is heavenly!! it just reminds me of the sakura buffet at orchard after i got alevels results.

on the ferry back to george town

i just cant believe that people still have energy left after the whole day of tripping around penang. right after we got home, WII sessions. it was quite interesting, especially the boxing games, but i was just too tired that i just stone at the side looking at them playing.

16-7-08
Chendol-Asam laksa-hokkien mee-charkuey tiao-horfun soup all in one area. we had all these must-eat-penang-food after visiting kek lok si. oh, did i forget to mention the fantastic nasi lemak breakfast that xinying's ah ma prepared for us. thanks ah ma! ;)

kek lok si

doing the jump :)
famous chendol:)

after all the penang good food, we travel up north to the land of paddy field, where there is rice bank, rice-operated-car, paddy currency. haha, yes, with izzat around, we kept teasing wy about alor setar, even before we arrived there. we had really really nice seafood dinner at the seaside. and after the dinner, we went to the TALLEST building in alor setar, which is the telekom building. heh, it was really nice :) sorry for all the teasing yea, wy!

17-07-08-19-07-08
Langkawi. Langkawi. Langkawi. we were all so excited and looking forward to the beach.sand.sun.chocolates.vodka(for some of them). haha. but before that, the horrible ferry ride. the sea condition was really bad that i had motion sickness and vomitted out my breakfast. after a stop by at kuah town, we finally arrived at berjaya resort, which is so ulu and far from other places in the town. but, the place is awesome.

the next day, we went to oriental village for the cable car ride. i love the colorful buildings there:) scenery up at the hill is beyond words. the blue sky and sea. bliss :)

up next, beach, volley ball, sunset :) i just miss the feelings of the strong waves massaging on the body. so free and relaxing.posing with the batik that we bought :)

20-07-08-21-07-08
after another horrible ferry ride, we finally reached back to penang. yet another round of good food. charcoal char kuey tiao, fantastic western food, rojak :)

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

i got tanned. my weight is scary. my wallet is bleeding. but still, i am missing everything of the trip. a big thank you to hoay, wy, xy and yk for all the planning, without which the trip wouldnt be a memorable one :)

We do not remember days; we remember moments.

Pilah-PD trip

Went down to Kl last tues. two days of going around charity homes, and calling up one by one, and followed by meeting up with friends :):):) i am happy that our charity homes stuff is almost done, with most of the homes confirmed, and only some miscellanous things need to be done.

Went over to jh's place to stay over. haha. i think her mom thinks that i am funny la, because i kept laughing. anyway, we started baking the next morning after leanne and px arrived. thankfully rm was around to help, or else, hahaa...i think, i would rather have one person who knows how to bake than to have four person that have no experience at all in baking around. haha. big applause for rm :) but, in the end, we still manage to produce muffins and cake. they were fantastic ok!

after rushing here and there, we finally met up with dom at kl sentral. and to make sure that we will arrive in seremban later than kh's dinner, we hang around that area and went in to coffee bean for some light dinner before heading off to srmbn. the cake is soooo nice! thanks jh :)

the muffin!
after arriving in srmbn, i called kh and told her that i wil be waiting for her at srmbn parade. i just cant believe how good am i in lying la!! haha. she didnt suspect anything and was so surprised when she saw so many of us there. :):):) the plan was a successful one. somehow, i think, this whole trip is based on a lie, and one of the memorable thing was the bluffing game :) haa.

waiting pathetic-ly at the redstage infront of mcds while the rest were stalking from 1st floor

i will post more pics here because i am just too lazy to type :P anyway, we went to ulu bendul the next morning. it was fun waking people up again. i just miss the feeling of waking kh up every morning with various violent means. haha :P

the belated birthday celebration

only when i reached ulu bendul that i found out that ulu bendul=gunung angsi!!!! the famous mountain that m206 went up to. we didnt went up to the peak but its enough to kill my poor new pair of nike shoes!! argh!!! i should have brought hiking shoes! anyway, i enjoyed the waterfall, i just like chilling beside waterfall :):):) another applause for kh's friend who guided us up.

ulu bendul :)

the apartment :)

posing infront of corus hotel, no we didnt stay here :(

doing 'the jump"

bbq

i was so exhausted after the bbq that i lie down straight on the bed after showering while everyone else was watching tv. and the funny thing is, i woke up at the time when everyone is getting ready to sleep. and we ended up walking to the hotel's pool side and chit-chat there. replace alcohol with root beer, we all were still very drunk. haha. i think i have got sugar high after the bbq due to the marshmellow :P

i don't regret spending all the effort planning this trip. all the laughters. the smiles. the jokes. it is all worth it :):):) kh,jh,leanne,dom,zl,ee,px, u guys are just so fantastic!!!

happy birthday!

This post is dedicated to someone special. someone that makes a difference in my life.

it was 3 years ago when we first met each other. my first impression? a straight-forward, optimistic girl. someone who is not afraid to voice out her feelings, but can be very 'kay-poh' at times :P

that first 6 months in hc, i never really got to know her. once in awhile, we do go swimming together. that's all that i remember.

only till second year, when we moved to mc nair, that our friendships bloom. it is where all the sweet, crazy, funny memories begin. i remember how we complaint about the sucky hostel, and how she taught me to climb down from the double decker bed, that was the start of everything.

walking to and back from school - having breakfast, lunch, dinner together - doing laundry - sleeping together-gether :P - going to the playground - singing crazily in the room - going to mcd early in the morning just to online - climbing to each other's bed - teaching each other maths and physics - stalking on other people's friendster's profiles - gossiping - waking each other up - playing badminton,ping pong - the reminder of 大包 - the encouragements outside the toilet door - writing funny notes for each other -

manymany crazy stuff that we have done together. thank you so much for the memories :)

and thanks for being there for me, through thick and thin. one thing that will stuck in my memory forever is your company at the playground when i was going through one of the toughest time. eventhough i bet u cant remember this now, but i remember vividly, my tears were dropping non stop that time, you didn't say a single word, but your presence is all that matters. even as we progressed on to different university, you are still there to listen to my ramblings, and supporting me 400km++ away.

you always apologise for annoying me, but i think irritating each other is our way of communication =P and i think by now i am used to your blurness/forgetfullness and equally, you should be used to my sarcasm/bad-temper.

it's funny to look at how two completely different individuals getting close. and i am really amazed at how you are able to guess what i am thinking, especially when i didn't want other people to know about it. just like how you are surprised when the things that i predicted came true, jinx right ? haha .

another thing that that i admire about you is your optimism and enthusiasm for everything. but recently, i think the level of optimism and enthusiasm are dropping right? i think you yourself realised that right? 加油 吧！and i remembered, you once told me, 生气别人就是在惩罚自己! i think this is very true, but somehow, i still get pissed so easily. haha =P

i hope as we are occupied with other things in life, our friendships will not change, until the day we are old and gray. thanks for all the efforts for keeping the flame of friendship burning :)

The Best of Friends
© Jill Wolf

The best of friends,
Can change a frown,
Into a smile,
when you feel down.

The best of friends,
Will understand,
Your little trials,
And lend a hand.

The best of friends,
Will always share,
Your secret dreams,
Because they care.

The best of friends,
Worth more than gold,
Give all the love,
A heart can hold.

Happy Birthday Ms GAN KAH HWEE :)

should be...

i should be reading this







not watching this...
i am just so addicted to House!!! His wisdom in solving puzzling cases is just so amazing, and not forgetting his sarcasm too :P i remembered i started watching house one year ago, few weeks after uni starts, and i gave up after one episode because i couldn't understand a single word from there.

but now, i am really loving it, some of the episodes are really like revision. it is like....when the guy in the movie mentioned some terms, i will go like...ahah! i know this! =)
leishmaniasis...sleeping sickness.. angiogram...encephalitis...autoimmune disease...and so on.

but, there are still so many terms that i have yet to find out. i know watching dramas won't help me to get through exams, but hey, i am watching medical related dramas ok! :P

''Everybody lies,the patient is lying,but the symptoms never lie."

or watching this....


check out this old movie by Heath Ledger. he was only 20 when he acted in the movie. but oh boy, look at the way he smiles.. :) :) :) awwww....

''don't make anyone make you feel like you don't deserve anything.''

a series of unfortunate events

The world may appear to be an unfriendly and sinister place
but believe me, there is much more good in it than bad
all you have to do is to look hard enough
the series of unfortunate events,
may in fact be first step of the journey.
~Lemony Snicket's, A series of unfortunate events~

sometimes, all things may seem to be ' not right ' . this is when you would have the feeling of helplessness. at this point, everyone will have the intention to give up, to let go everything.

recalling back this one year in uni, many of times i feel like giving up. i have always wondered, will all the hardships be worth it at the end of the day? afterall, what i want in life is to be happy and to be free from worries. why choose the difficult path? i guess, it is not a matter of worth it or not. life would not be complete without hardships. and it is all this experience, that makes me who i am today. and i realised, with each challenges that i faced, i emerge stronger.

and i am thankful to have optimistic friends around me, supporting me always with all the encouraging words, telling me that everything will be alright at the end of the day. no matter how hard is the situation, as long as you face it with all your heart, you will be able to overcome it eventually. how i hope i can grow to be more optimistic. this i must learn.

everyone is saying this:

let go and move on.

but i can tell you, it's not so easy! ( well , at least for me , or else i wouldn't end up in such a pathetic situation as now ) how i wish there is a 'delete' button or 'rewind' button in our life, that we can choose to remember things that we want, and the rest shall go to the recycle bin. but i guess, it is all this bits and pieces of memories, regardless whether it is happy or sad, sweet or bitter, that complete the whole jigsaw puzzle right?

i am starting to contradict myself. haha. anyway, i shall learn to let go. my dear friend who lend me this movie, a series of unfortunate events , we shall learn together :)

what you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened,
it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment.
and this is the moment that you can choose to make everything new.
right now.

and to add on, enjoy the moment! :)

portugal is playing against germany tonite. both are the teams that i like. argh!

yet another waterfall on father's day :)

Happy father's day =)

Been away from home for the past 3 years during father's day. and finally, this year, i am at home :) many people have been asking me, how do i celebrate this father's day? my answer, i don't normally celebrate father's or mother's day. to be able to be at home, accompanying my parents is the best gift in the world. and i think this is what all parents want the most.

today, allowing my dad to rest for a day, i took over the job as chauffeur. and we went to a waterfall. i just so love waterfall :) and i miss those weekends that we , one family, went picnic at waterfalls, beaches, and parks. those were the stress-free days.

yet another waterfall :)


playing with the water :)

Happy father's day to all dads.

There's one sad truth in life I've found
While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best.
~Ella Wheeler Wilcox

dad, thanks for everything and sorry for all the mistakes that i have done, and all those times that i made u worry,forgive me for hurting u.
i am who i am today, because of you.
And you're someone whom i look up to no matter how tall I've grown (though i am still shorter than u now :P )

dad,i know u will most likely not be reading this, but i really hope that you are happy always, and i pray for your eternal health.

New love

if u still haven't noticed by now, i have been posting a lot about mountain climbing, waterfall, runs........ lately. some of my friends even asked me, why this sudden change? why this sudden love for nature?

The beauty of nature. something which is so hard to explain till you experience it yourself. one year ago, if you were to ask me to go mountain climbing, waterfall etc...you would get a NO straight to your face. but now, without a second thought, the answer is YES :)

peace of mind.

its all i need.
its what city people need.
sometimes, the hustle bustle of daily life in the city can drive people insane.

i remember. during eos preparation month, it is the tranquility of the park that is keeping me sane, giving me the motivation to continue with the battle. the walks/jogs in the parks were the biggest luxury that i could ask for during that period. i love the parks and the company.

'If nature were not beautiful, it would not be worth knowing,
and if nature were not worth knowing, life would not be worth living.'

being able to appreciate all these wonders that mother nature has got to offer, i am truly grateful. who knows what will happen in 10/20 years time. human civilization and development have greatly threatened natural environment. but its inevitable. will nature still be as beautiful as now? i hope yes.

love. nature.

oh yes, happy birthday Meen Yee :)

runway

Life
Is like a runway
Long
With lots of hurdles
But eventually
It will come to an end

Driving on the highway allows me to have plenty of time to think, and to reminiscence.

When you feel that you are slow, you just need to step on the paddle, the car will accelerate.
And when you feel that it is too fast, similarly, you just need to step on another paddle, the car will decelerate.

How i wish that life could be that simple, that everything in life is within our control.

Unlike driving, we can't control the rate of our life. how fast things are. or how slow things are.

And unlike highway, there isn't any signboard along the route of life directing us to the destination we want. And most of the time, there isn't U-turn in life. once u have made you decision, you will have to stick with the consequences regardless whether you want it or not. This is life.

A friend once told me, he does something because he wants, he cares and he can. that is definitely an ideal situation . but sadly, that is not the case for me, many of times, i do something not because i want to, it is because i have to or because i am obliged to. this is life. this is my life.

klang gate 2

went up to klang gate again. a different group of friends. a different scenery. a different experience :) i totally love the pics that we have taken, its just like those u see in postcards, thanks to jh's pro camera and camera skills :D

and one day after klang gate, i took part in 16hours relay for life, organised by national cancer society of malaysia. i was very tired that night, but for some certain reasons, i ran like crazy in the dark. during the 30++ rounds of running around the track, i had a lot of time to think, about my future, about so many things that happened recently. somehow, i realised, things just don't always turn out the way that you hope. but to be happy in life, i must really learn to look at the positive sides. i guess it is so easy to say than to execute right.

Gunung Dato

As promised, i shall post something about my hike. whoever who said that this hike is going to be relaxing and easy, dun trust their words. i would say the trail is very tough, even tougher than GBH. because the whole path is like 70 degrees all the way up. not even a single piece of flat ground. how great right! but...everything is worth it. the scenery on the up there is spectacular. both sunset and sunrise:) some of us went up to the peak at night time and oh boy, it was so cold up there that i didnt sleep the whole nite. and adding to the fact that i kept sliding down from the uneven rock, i am amazed that why i didnt bother walking back to the base camp to have a good rest. but nevertheless, i really enjoyed the hike :)

Pictures paint a thousand words.

sunset

top of the world :)

beautiful sunrise

me and jeannie :)

post eos

time flies. one week ago, i was still locked in the bukit jalil prison studying for my very first major exam. and now, i am slacking around, wasting my time like nobody's business :P eos results will be out in 2 days, we cant do anything about it, so let's just pray hard that everyone will do fine :)

when i recall back the two weeks of studying, the only word that i can think of is stress. i am stressed not because of the exam, i am stressed because i am not studying hard enough for the exam. somehow, the motivation is not there. but i really have to thank my friends and family who are always there supporting me and giving me tons of motivation. and not forgetting all the 'fuel' for for me to continue to study...the pulut hitam from wy, banana pie from hy, chicken soup from xy,barley from jeannie,different types of fruits from rm, and also many many lunch meal from my sis in law :) all these may seem to be very small, but i am truly grateful :)

anyway, after we finished with ospe, me,lq,jeannie and peggy went out for desserts :) thereafter, being purposeless as i am, i decided to follow along jeannie and wy for a football match between chealsea and man u. i am not exactly a football fan, but i do watch football every now and then. haha, i still rmb i was so crazy about football for one period that i watched every single match during the world cup period. but that was like 6 years ago :P and all the players that i like, eg oliver khan is even retired already. haha. back to this match, it is really nice and DRAMATIC. haha. i shall not elaborate more because all those u can read it from the news. but yar, watching football in mamak is really very different from watching at home. with so many people around me shouting, the atmosphere made me enjoy the match more :)

the match extended till around 6am in the morning, and this also means that i havent been sleeping for more than 24 hours!!!!! this is really my first time. and despite being soooo tired, we headed to mcd to discuss about our penang trip in july. oh yes, did i forget to mention, we are going to penang, langkawi and kedah in mid july. i am soo looking forward to it. after mcd, we rushed back to sch to meet up with dr ranjit to consult about our COP.

and after that, i met up with kh and brought her around imu. and i laugh my head off when wy and xy said that me and kh look alike. hahaa. sorry la, but i really don't think we have anything in common except that we both have 2 eyes, 1 nose and mouth :P we went to 1u to meet up with ee and jh and had lunch at vietnam's kitchen. we had a great time catching up with each other. but i was really too exhausted and was stoning half of the time.

since i violently object the idea of watching movie, we went to ee's house at sieeramas to play cards. his house is super super super nice. and yes, the nicest part is the bed. haha. i slept straightaway when we reached the house while the rest of them were playing bridge.and at nite, we went murni to have dinner and it was very nice and not as expensive as william's.

the next stop is at jh's place. me and kh stayed over at jh's place that nite and we had pillow chat before we all fall asleep. and initially we planned to wake up early the next morning, but haha, guess what , we woke up at 11 plus and yea, just nice for a brunch :P

and u think i will take a rest after a month of studying and 3 days of post eos celebration, u are so wrong :P on saturday, i went to a hike at gunung dato. more details will be posted on next post.

more pics of klang gate :)