it's worse when

it doesn't matter anymore

or

it matters, but i don't care

or

i care, but i didnt want to let myself to feel anything.



it's scary how time flies and tick away just like that. but, i don't care. i am letting every second to slip out of my fingers just like that.

it's really funny how different things are, and how fast they can change without you realising it. but i don't care.

it's sad when..i stood at the balcony looking at the bright moon , dark sky with twinkling stars, but i don't feel anything anymore.

i know i am letting down people who cares.i am sorry. but i can't help it. now.

as you make a decision, you gain something, and lose something. i hope i am not losing myself as i take this step.