downhill

how can all these happen so fast? i hope things could end up better.

this is like a vicious cycle. everything is so familiar. i went through the whole cycle before.

why do i always allow myself to fall into the same maze?

i always hope if there is someone who can tell me what i should do at such moment. but i know certain things you just gotta learn to solve it yourself. coz thats how you learn.

but i never seem to learn from mistakes. and i am going downhill again. i hope i can go back to the pre-eos period, when i just study study and study, nothing else but study. at least i feel like a human then. a useful one.

i cant wait to go taiwan/sg. away from all this. coz everything in my room reminds me of somebody. and its just plain torture.

looking back at my blog, i think i only update whenever i feel sad. many things happened in between. many reasons to smile. maybe what dr P said is true, we should always look at the positive sides of things.