i am back from kuala kubu baru, or the kiri kanan bukit.haha. i wasn't actually posted to there for rotation this semester but then i just went over during the weekend for the waterfall trip :) but but but, the funny thing is that i didn't even get to go to the waterfall and the pasar malam. instead i spent most of the time at A&E department in kkb hospital and got to see really interesting cases.
first delivery that i get to witnessed makes me appreciate my mom more. the pain is really really really really really unbearable. eventhough i wasn't the one giving birth, i can really feel the pain. i can feel it when the needle was piercing the woman's perianal region. it is just something that you cannot describe with words. but i guess, the woman's pain is not wasted, as a new life was brought to this world and it is the laughter, smile or maybe even the cry of the baby that keeps the woman holding on. i got the chance to hold the baby. i feel so motherly for the second :P and we were saying that we should bring all those teenagers out there who are ignorant about all sexual contraceptives to witness a child birth. that should scare them enough. but i am thinking, why not bring those kanasai people who never appreciate their parents for bringing them to this world, for raising them up, shedding sweats, tears and even blood in the process. that would really slap them awake.
besides serious work, i also went fishing. but this time round, it was night fishing. a totally new experience. rm brought us to a bridge and there we can see so many anglers there, waiting patiently for their next day's lunch/dinner to hook on. when i got down the car, i can really feel the peace in my mind. it just reminds me of the time when we were high up on the peak of the mountain. so calm. so peaceful. and we can hear the waterfall from far vividly. what more with a nice moonlight and thousands of stars.ah, bliss.
we stayed there for the whole night to next morning and almost freze to death the night but it was all worth it. the view in the morning was just AWESOME. i was really smiling inside and outside, something that is missing in me for soooo long. it's not a smile that i have to fake out, that i have to send impulses to cerebral cortex and control my lips muscles to contract and there forms a smile. its just so natural. i feel happy from deep within. and i really miss the feeling.
although we didn't get to go to the waterfall, we spent time at the downstream. it was equally fun:) i guess, its not about the place, but more of the company. hanging out with all guys is not a bad thing afterall, except the dirty jokes part.haha. i was so entertained by the boys musical perfomance(for more than one hour!!!!!!!). and not forgetting the illegal thing that they did, i shall not mention it outloud here. but the experince was truly memorable. i really love u guys, Dr B, rm,kj, cw :):):)
first delivery that i get to witnessed makes me appreciate my mom more. the pain is really really really really really unbearable. eventhough i wasn't the one giving birth, i can really feel the pain. i can feel it when the needle was piercing the woman's perianal region. it is just something that you cannot describe with words. but i guess, the woman's pain is not wasted, as a new life was brought to this world and it is the laughter, smile or maybe even the cry of the baby that keeps the woman holding on. i got the chance to hold the baby. i feel so motherly for the second :P and we were saying that we should bring all those teenagers out there who are ignorant about all sexual contraceptives to witness a child birth. that should scare them enough. but i am thinking, why not bring those kanasai people who never appreciate their parents for bringing them to this world, for raising them up, shedding sweats, tears and even blood in the process. that would really slap them awake.
besides serious work, i also went fishing. but this time round, it was night fishing. a totally new experience. rm brought us to a bridge and there we can see so many anglers there, waiting patiently for their next day's lunch/dinner to hook on. when i got down the car, i can really feel the peace in my mind. it just reminds me of the time when we were high up on the peak of the mountain. so calm. so peaceful. and we can hear the waterfall from far vividly. what more with a nice moonlight and thousands of stars.ah, bliss.
we stayed there for the whole night to next morning and almost freze to death the night but it was all worth it. the view in the morning was just AWESOME. i was really smiling inside and outside, something that is missing in me for soooo long. it's not a smile that i have to fake out, that i have to send impulses to cerebral cortex and control my lips muscles to contract and there forms a smile. its just so natural. i feel happy from deep within. and i really miss the feeling.
although we didn't get to go to the waterfall, we spent time at the downstream. it was equally fun:) i guess, its not about the place, but more of the company. hanging out with all guys is not a bad thing afterall, except the dirty jokes part.haha. i was so entertained by the boys musical perfomance(for more than one hour!!!!!!!). and not forgetting the illegal thing that they did, i shall not mention it outloud here. but the experince was truly memorable. i really love u guys, Dr B, rm,kj, cw :):):)
AWESOME scenery:)
the AWESOME guys :)
lastly, THE jump :)
there is this feeling that i have never felt before. it was just so comfortable. i have never felt this way in my life. i just hope time can be stopped at that moment. but to enjoy all this, i know i am sacrificing so many other things. so many things that i have neglected. and i am making myself sinking deeper and deeper. but dun get it wrong, i am not emo-ing. because i enjoyed it, and everyone deserves to enjoy what he/she wants right? :)
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