do doctors have the power of healing? i duno. embarking on this medical journey makes me think of many things. people always say doctors make a great contributions to the society, by saving lives. but many of times doctors can't do anything but to raise a the flag to surrender to some disease, best example would be late stage cancers.
when i was in kkb, i can't forget the way the family of the patient look at me. the look that says: ' please help us" , " we really need you". but there i was, standing there helplessly. can't do anything but staring at the ill patient. i really want to help, but now i do not have the ability yet. the feeling is just depressing.
but next time, when i have gotten my own license, to stand at the frontline, will i still be as helpless? i guess i will feel even worse if i can't do anything but to let the life slip off my hand like that.
am i prepared for all this? facing deaths every single day? treating death like eating? certifying death like reading newspaper? breaking news to the patient's family like telling a story? detaching myself from feeling anything at all?
i know one day, i will be numb with all this. but i guess, when that time comes, it is just plain sad. that i no longer have feelings for death. but i have to be desensitised with this, or else i will suffer.
i can't let patient die because of my mistake, or because i am lack of the knowledge. that's something that my friend said. its very true. getting good results now doesnt guarantee that one will be a good doctor, but to be a good doctor, you first must have the very basic knowledge. so conclusion?
S-T-U-D-Y!
when i was in kkb, i can't forget the way the family of the patient look at me. the look that says: ' please help us" , " we really need you". but there i was, standing there helplessly. can't do anything but staring at the ill patient. i really want to help, but now i do not have the ability yet. the feeling is just depressing.
but next time, when i have gotten my own license, to stand at the frontline, will i still be as helpless? i guess i will feel even worse if i can't do anything but to let the life slip off my hand like that.
am i prepared for all this? facing deaths every single day? treating death like eating? certifying death like reading newspaper? breaking news to the patient's family like telling a story? detaching myself from feeling anything at all?
i know one day, i will be numb with all this. but i guess, when that time comes, it is just plain sad. that i no longer have feelings for death. but i have to be desensitised with this, or else i will suffer.
i can't let patient die because of my mistake, or because i am lack of the knowledge. that's something that my friend said. its very true. getting good results now doesnt guarantee that one will be a good doctor, but to be a good doctor, you first must have the very basic knowledge. so conclusion?
S-T-U-D-Y!
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