Counting down

T minus 1 day for my results.

T minus 3 days before I fly half a globe across to the states.

T minus 13 days before my CS.

Palpitations. Chest tightness. hyperarousability.

Dx: I think I am having panic attack.

Been 3 weeks since I started my CS preparations. Practised with so many people from all over the world via skype, India, Canada, China, Egypt, as well as with my very supportive friends. So practically I have trained myself to understand all different accents, which was kinda interesting.I am thankful for all the help, I definitely learn one thing or two from all of them.

Had lunch with my mentor yesterday. Counting back, I have met him for 4 years, since my attachment in his clinic when I was in second year. Even though it was just a one week clinic attachment, after that we still kept in close contact. He also shared lots of valuable experience with me, brought me to many different international conferences, which were really eye opener for me. Besides, he also kept track on my progress, gave me constant stress which push me to work harder.

At times, I was rather frustrated as some things which he taught may not be up to date, but I stayed quiet. One thing I admire him is his passion for medicine. He still attends medical conference in his area of interest constantly although he is already at the age of retirement. At the age of 70s+, one would expect a relaxing retirement life. Yet, he is still running his clinic and attending all the courses to keep himself updated. You may say its for the money, no. I can assure you its not because of that. from what I observe, he charged patient at the lowest price, and sometimes he even treat some of the patients free of charge. so, I often see rambutans, durians, potatoes, veggies given by the patients as appreciation.

okay, I got distracted. anyways, just sharing my bits of life.

Palpitations. I am praying for the best. Hopefully everything will turn out fine.

Till then, will update after I am back from the states.