It's that close. really close. I have to give my final push.
I just want to pray that I can have a good sleep and rest during this final phase of preparation. Please grant me the peace, confidence, strength to pull through this.
Showing posts with label USMLE. Show all posts
Showing posts with label USMLE. Show all posts
Saturday, March 30, 2013
t minus 11
t minus 11 to the exam. been running low on motivation. came across this video which is really inspiring. Actually watched this during my ck preparation, but this time it makes more sense.
Whoever who are on the same boat as me, may all of us succeed in this exam. It's definitely not easy. but we really can't let this exam define who we are. definitely should never let this exam stop us from achieving what we want.
It's that close. really close. I have to give my final push.
I just want to pray that I can have a good sleep and rest during this final phase of preparation. Please grant me the peace, confidence, strength to pull through this.
It's that close. really close. I have to give my final push.
I just want to pray that I can have a good sleep and rest during this final phase of preparation. Please grant me the peace, confidence, strength to pull through this.
Tuesday, March 05, 2013
5 weeks
5 more weeks to the big war, my final war to go!
Been doing UW Question bank last week. It is actually considered by most exam takers as one of the best tool for preparation in usmle. I am left with 1325 Q to go. Doing 3blocks of questions a day, slowly, and surely I am reaching the finishing line.
The journey is not easy. Of course nothing worth having is going to be easy. Something and for some reason, I am led to this path. Whatever reason it is for, I am going to do my best. I have learnt so much during this journey, not only medically, but also many other aspects. I am sure this will make me a better person at the end of the journey.
After this, I am going to use all this knowledge that I have to help ( hopefully and finally). One of my lecturers in internal medicine actually told me, we have been receiving much, so it's time to give out some. I totally agree with this. I am going to use whatever I have ( regardless how little), to give back to the people.
So much has happened since I last posted. A close family member of mine has pass on to a better place. They say human come and go, without notifying you. Death, just like labour, can happen anytime, and caught you in a surprise, either in a pleasant or a not so pleasant way. ah gong, wherever you are now, I just want to thank you, for without you, I would not be typing this here. may you rest in peace.
Another piece of news, ( good news at least) , I have passed my step2 CS. Compared to the forum mates which I have practised with, I definitely do not deserve this. But I really thank god this this. After ck and cs, I am left with the very last giant step to go.
Just have to tell myself, keep going. Just have to repeat this" I am not telling you it is going to be easy, I am telling you it's going to be worth it.
Been doing UW Question bank last week. It is actually considered by most exam takers as one of the best tool for preparation in usmle. I am left with 1325 Q to go. Doing 3blocks of questions a day, slowly, and surely I am reaching the finishing line.
The journey is not easy. Of course nothing worth having is going to be easy. Something and for some reason, I am led to this path. Whatever reason it is for, I am going to do my best. I have learnt so much during this journey, not only medically, but also many other aspects. I am sure this will make me a better person at the end of the journey.
After this, I am going to use all this knowledge that I have to help ( hopefully and finally). One of my lecturers in internal medicine actually told me, we have been receiving much, so it's time to give out some. I totally agree with this. I am going to use whatever I have ( regardless how little), to give back to the people.
So much has happened since I last posted. A close family member of mine has pass on to a better place. They say human come and go, without notifying you. Death, just like labour, can happen anytime, and caught you in a surprise, either in a pleasant or a not so pleasant way. ah gong, wherever you are now, I just want to thank you, for without you, I would not be typing this here. may you rest in peace.
Another piece of news, ( good news at least) , I have passed my step2 CS. Compared to the forum mates which I have practised with, I definitely do not deserve this. But I really thank god this this. After ck and cs, I am left with the very last giant step to go.
Just have to tell myself, keep going. Just have to repeat this" I am not telling you it is going to be easy, I am telling you it's going to be worth it.
Sunday, January 06, 2013
concentration
It's 86 days to my exam. I am planning to schedule it on the 4th April. Here's the link to my prep journal again.
http://www.prep4usmle.com/forum/thread/115662/
CS was a very humbling journey as I got to know many people from all over the world. Some are phd holder, some even got offered a teaching job in my university. But they are all on the same boat as me, fighting to pass this exam.
As I started my preparation for step 1, I realised I am in a very different boat as step 2 ck or cs. After all, it's the first step in the long usmle journey. It is also supposedly the toughest exam. The people whom I met in the forum is definitely different from those in step 2. Many have given up half way or if they fail or scored a below average results. of course, there are people who took the exam for the second or even third time to fight this step 1 giant. The very difference is the determination. How determined you want to pass and do well in this exam.
Been unable to ceoncentrate well this few days. Today I realised, the only thing which can make me feel good is the feeling of accomplishment. And this good feeling is the main push for me to study harder. Of course, the determination.
Had a long discussion with mom yesterday about this issue of determination. How determined and how confident am I to be able to continue my training in the states. For now, honestly I don't know. I can only say I am taking one step at a time and my plan now is to give my best for step 1. But one thing for sure, I want to go higher in this ladder of medicine. I don't want to just be another-doctor-in-the-neighbourhood. I always believe we have to give our best in whatever we do,hopefully we can be at the top the ladder.
May we have the strength and determination to pull through whatever the future holds.
http://www.prep4usmle.com/forum/thread/115662/
CS was a very humbling journey as I got to know many people from all over the world. Some are phd holder, some even got offered a teaching job in my university. But they are all on the same boat as me, fighting to pass this exam.
As I started my preparation for step 1, I realised I am in a very different boat as step 2 ck or cs. After all, it's the first step in the long usmle journey. It is also supposedly the toughest exam. The people whom I met in the forum is definitely different from those in step 2. Many have given up half way or if they fail or scored a below average results. of course, there are people who took the exam for the second or even third time to fight this step 1 giant. The very difference is the determination. How determined you want to pass and do well in this exam.
Been unable to ceoncentrate well this few days. Today I realised, the only thing which can make me feel good is the feeling of accomplishment. And this good feeling is the main push for me to study harder. Of course, the determination.
Had a long discussion with mom yesterday about this issue of determination. How determined and how confident am I to be able to continue my training in the states. For now, honestly I don't know. I can only say I am taking one step at a time and my plan now is to give my best for step 1. But one thing for sure, I want to go higher in this ladder of medicine. I don't want to just be another-doctor-in-the-neighbourhood. I always believe we have to give our best in whatever we do,hopefully we can be at the top the ladder.
May we have the strength and determination to pull through whatever the future holds.
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Counting down
T minus 1 day for my results.
T minus 3 days before I fly half a globe across to the states.
T minus 13 days before my CS.
Palpitations. Chest tightness. hyperarousability.
Dx: I think I am having panic attack.
Been 3 weeks since I started my CS preparations. Practised with so many people from all over the world via skype, India, Canada, China, Egypt, as well as with my very supportive friends. So practically I have trained myself to understand all different accents, which was kinda interesting.I am thankful for all the help, I definitely learn one thing or two from all of them.
Had lunch with my mentor yesterday. Counting back, I have met him for 4 years, since my attachment in his clinic when I was in second year. Even though it was just a one week clinic attachment, after that we still kept in close contact. He also shared lots of valuable experience with me, brought me to many different international conferences, which were really eye opener for me. Besides, he also kept track on my progress, gave me constant stress which push me to work harder.
At times, I was rather frustrated as some things which he taught may not be up to date, but I stayed quiet. One thing I admire him is his passion for medicine. He still attends medical conference in his area of interest constantly although he is already at the age of retirement. At the age of 70s+, one would expect a relaxing retirement life. Yet, he is still running his clinic and attending all the courses to keep himself updated. You may say its for the money, no. I can assure you its not because of that. from what I observe, he charged patient at the lowest price, and sometimes he even treat some of the patients free of charge. so, I often see rambutans, durians, potatoes, veggies given by the patients as appreciation.
okay, I got distracted. anyways, just sharing my bits of life.
Palpitations. I am praying for the best. Hopefully everything will turn out fine.
Till then, will update after I am back from the states.
T minus 3 days before I fly half a globe across to the states.
T minus 13 days before my CS.
Palpitations. Chest tightness. hyperarousability.
Dx: I think I am having panic attack.
Been 3 weeks since I started my CS preparations. Practised with so many people from all over the world via skype, India, Canada, China, Egypt, as well as with my very supportive friends. So practically I have trained myself to understand all different accents, which was kinda interesting.I am thankful for all the help, I definitely learn one thing or two from all of them.
Had lunch with my mentor yesterday. Counting back, I have met him for 4 years, since my attachment in his clinic when I was in second year. Even though it was just a one week clinic attachment, after that we still kept in close contact. He also shared lots of valuable experience with me, brought me to many different international conferences, which were really eye opener for me. Besides, he also kept track on my progress, gave me constant stress which push me to work harder.
At times, I was rather frustrated as some things which he taught may not be up to date, but I stayed quiet. One thing I admire him is his passion for medicine. He still attends medical conference in his area of interest constantly although he is already at the age of retirement. At the age of 70s+, one would expect a relaxing retirement life. Yet, he is still running his clinic and attending all the courses to keep himself updated. You may say its for the money, no. I can assure you its not because of that. from what I observe, he charged patient at the lowest price, and sometimes he even treat some of the patients free of charge. so, I often see rambutans, durians, potatoes, veggies given by the patients as appreciation.
okay, I got distracted. anyways, just sharing my bits of life.
Palpitations. I am praying for the best. Hopefully everything will turn out fine.
Till then, will update after I am back from the states.
Sunday, November 04, 2012
Post battle
I am done with my ck! 9 hours with 300+ questions, I felt that my brain was running a marathon, and every moment I gotta ask myself to keep going! Mental stamina is just as important as physical stamina. When I was watching the prep video, the presenter mention, having this exam is just like asking the examinee: ' Do you want to do this' for 300+ times. As each question unfold, you have to tell yourself, YES I want to do this. The 2.5 months odd preparation was not easy. Maybe I felt it was longer coz I was facing this alone, without any batch mate along with me for this journey! But I am thankful for having few friend in the forum to motivate me!
Anyways, the exam is over. Some questions were easy, some were tough. Results will be out in 3 weeks. Anyways, I am just hoping for the best.
Sometimes, I felt I am such an ungrateful brat. Always complaining this that and sometimes even acting very immaturely. But deep inside, I am really really really grateful for what I have. I am thankful for who I am today, for all the people around me. It's just sometimes I can't control my emotions and mouth. haish. And because of all these, I may have unintentionally hurt people around me. I know I have bad temper and I have to change this! I have been listening to podcast whenever when I am traveling on stuff like EQ etc.
Just as I am continuing my journey, I realise it's important for each person to add value to him/herself. We are given 24 hours each, not more not less. It's up to us how we are going to spend the hour, the minute or the second. I am 25 year old and I realised I haven't achieved much over these years. Value, is a very subjective thing. As I am here filling myself with medical knowledge, I realised it's time to give out to the society, with whatever limited knowledge I have.
So, just as I am done with my ck, I filled up the Mercy Malaysia form. I was quite proud of myself for one second, haha. Reason being, last time I used to fill up the column ambition with 'doctor', now for the very first time, I fill the world 'doctor' to the occupation column, for a good cause :)
I guess in my journey of pursuing the ladder of success, in adding a long list to my resume, I need to add value to my soul. I don't want to lose my human touch along the way.
Ok, this post is quite disorgarnised. Anyways, hope everyone's been good! Can't wait to head to the states soon! now back to my CS preparation! Go go go!
Anyways, the exam is over. Some questions were easy, some were tough. Results will be out in 3 weeks. Anyways, I am just hoping for the best.
Sometimes, I felt I am such an ungrateful brat. Always complaining this that and sometimes even acting very immaturely. But deep inside, I am really really really grateful for what I have. I am thankful for who I am today, for all the people around me. It's just sometimes I can't control my emotions and mouth. haish. And because of all these, I may have unintentionally hurt people around me. I know I have bad temper and I have to change this! I have been listening to podcast whenever when I am traveling on stuff like EQ etc.
Just as I am continuing my journey, I realise it's important for each person to add value to him/herself. We are given 24 hours each, not more not less. It's up to us how we are going to spend the hour, the minute or the second. I am 25 year old and I realised I haven't achieved much over these years. Value, is a very subjective thing. As I am here filling myself with medical knowledge, I realised it's time to give out to the society, with whatever limited knowledge I have.
So, just as I am done with my ck, I filled up the Mercy Malaysia form. I was quite proud of myself for one second, haha. Reason being, last time I used to fill up the column ambition with 'doctor', now for the very first time, I fill the world 'doctor' to the occupation column, for a good cause :)
I guess in my journey of pursuing the ladder of success, in adding a long list to my resume, I need to add value to my soul. I don't want to lose my human touch along the way.
Ok, this post is quite disorgarnised. Anyways, hope everyone's been good! Can't wait to head to the states soon! now back to my CS preparation! Go go go!
Wednesday, October 03, 2012
A new chapter of life
It's october! Been away from the blog for too long. Yes, I have graduated, finally. Although I am slightly disappointed that I couldn't achieve my goal, but well, that's life.
''A champion is defined not by their wins but by how they can recover when they fall.'' Serena William -US Open 2012 champion.
I shall not look back.
Quoting from a friend, we are still considered kindergarten in this journey of medicine. There are much more to come.
and yes, today marks the first day of work for many of my friends! Wherever they are, wish they luck and hopefully with the knowledge which we have acquired in this few years, they will be able to return back to the community!
So what about me? I am choosing another path. Just like the poem by Robert Frost, The Road not Taken, I am taking a far different road, road to the states. Am reading for my steps now, step by step. Taking a baby step each day.
Here's a link to a journal dedicated to my preparations. There are so many many other people out there who are also taking this route, many are mothers of a few, juggling between work, studies and family. So I feel rather 'lucky' to be able to read this step in peace.
http://www.prep4usmle.com/forum/thread/113195/
And yes, 2012, more magical moments to come.
I want the krou of 2013 be able to thank krou of 2012 for making this decision, taking this big step, and to thank krou of 2012 for persevering and working hard. yes. I want to be able to thank myself ( and of course people who have helped me a lot along the way) when I look back.
No regrets. No more.
''A champion is defined not by their wins but by how they can recover when they fall.'' Serena William -US Open 2012 champion.
I shall not look back.
Quoting from a friend, we are still considered kindergarten in this journey of medicine. There are much more to come.
and yes, today marks the first day of work for many of my friends! Wherever they are, wish they luck and hopefully with the knowledge which we have acquired in this few years, they will be able to return back to the community!
So what about me? I am choosing another path. Just like the poem by Robert Frost, The Road not Taken, I am taking a far different road, road to the states. Am reading for my steps now, step by step. Taking a baby step each day.
Here's a link to a journal dedicated to my preparations. There are so many many other people out there who are also taking this route, many are mothers of a few, juggling between work, studies and family. So I feel rather 'lucky' to be able to read this step in peace.
http://www.prep4usmle.com/forum/thread/113195/
And yes, 2012, more magical moments to come.
I want the krou of 2013 be able to thank krou of 2012 for making this decision, taking this big step, and to thank krou of 2012 for persevering and working hard. yes. I want to be able to thank myself ( and of course people who have helped me a lot along the way) when I look back.
No regrets. No more.
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