happy birthday!

This post is dedicated to someone special. someone that makes a difference in my life.

it was 3 years ago when we first met each other. my first impression? a straight-forward, optimistic girl. someone who is not afraid to voice out her feelings, but can be very 'kay-poh' at times :P

that first 6 months in hc, i never really got to know her. once in awhile, we do go swimming together. that's all that i remember.

only till second year, when we moved to mc nair, that our friendships bloom. it is where all the sweet, crazy, funny memories begin. i remember how we complaint about the sucky hostel, and how she taught me to climb down from the double decker bed, that was the start of everything.

walking to and back from school - having breakfast, lunch, dinner together - doing laundry - sleeping together-gether :P - going to the playground - singing crazily in the room - going to mcd early in the morning just to online - climbing to each other's bed - teaching each other maths and physics - stalking on other people's friendster's profiles - gossiping - waking each other up - playing badminton,ping pong - the reminder of 大包 - the encouragements outside the toilet door - writing funny notes for each other -

manymany crazy stuff that we have done together. thank you so much for the memories :)

and thanks for being there for me, through thick and thin. one thing that will stuck in my memory forever is your company at the playground when i was going through one of the toughest time. eventhough i bet u cant remember this now, but i remember vividly, my tears were dropping non stop that time, you didn't say a single word, but your presence is all that matters. even as we progressed on to different university, you are still there to listen to my ramblings, and supporting me 400km++ away.

you always apologise for annoying me, but i think irritating each other is our way of communication =P and i think by now i am used to your blurness/forgetfullness and equally, you should be used to my sarcasm/bad-temper.

it's funny to look at how two completely different individuals getting close. and i am really amazed at how you are able to guess what i am thinking, especially when i didn't want other people to know about it. just like how you are surprised when the things that i predicted came true, jinx right ? haha .

another thing that that i admire about you is your optimism and enthusiasm for everything. but recently, i think the level of optimism and enthusiasm are dropping right? i think you yourself realised that right? 加油 吧！and i remembered, you once told me, 生气别人就是在惩罚自己! i think this is very true, but somehow, i still get pissed so easily. haha =P

i hope as we are occupied with other things in life, our friendships will not change, until the day we are old and gray. thanks for all the efforts for keeping the flame of friendship burning :)

The Best of Friends
© Jill Wolf

The best of friends,
Can change a frown,
Into a smile,
when you feel down.

The best of friends,
Will understand,
Your little trials,
And lend a hand.

The best of friends,
Will always share,
Your secret dreams,
Because they care.

The best of friends,
Worth more than gold,
Give all the love,
A heart can hold.

Happy Birthday Ms GAN KAH HWEE :)

should be...

i should be reading this







not watching this...
i am just so addicted to House!!! His wisdom in solving puzzling cases is just so amazing, and not forgetting his sarcasm too :P i remembered i started watching house one year ago, few weeks after uni starts, and i gave up after one episode because i couldn't understand a single word from there.

but now, i am really loving it, some of the episodes are really like revision. it is like....when the guy in the movie mentioned some terms, i will go like...ahah! i know this! =)
leishmaniasis...sleeping sickness.. angiogram...encephalitis...autoimmune disease...and so on.

but, there are still so many terms that i have yet to find out. i know watching dramas won't help me to get through exams, but hey, i am watching medical related dramas ok! :P

''Everybody lies,the patient is lying,but the symptoms never lie."

or watching this....


check out this old movie by Heath Ledger. he was only 20 when he acted in the movie. but oh boy, look at the way he smiles.. :) :) :) awwww....

''don't make anyone make you feel like you don't deserve anything.''

a series of unfortunate events

The world may appear to be an unfriendly and sinister place
but believe me, there is much more good in it than bad
all you have to do is to look hard enough
the series of unfortunate events,
may in fact be first step of the journey.
~Lemony Snicket's, A series of unfortunate events~

sometimes, all things may seem to be ' not right ' . this is when you would have the feeling of helplessness. at this point, everyone will have the intention to give up, to let go everything.

recalling back this one year in uni, many of times i feel like giving up. i have always wondered, will all the hardships be worth it at the end of the day? afterall, what i want in life is to be happy and to be free from worries. why choose the difficult path? i guess, it is not a matter of worth it or not. life would not be complete without hardships. and it is all this experience, that makes me who i am today. and i realised, with each challenges that i faced, i emerge stronger.

and i am thankful to have optimistic friends around me, supporting me always with all the encouraging words, telling me that everything will be alright at the end of the day. no matter how hard is the situation, as long as you face it with all your heart, you will be able to overcome it eventually. how i hope i can grow to be more optimistic. this i must learn.

everyone is saying this:

let go and move on.

but i can tell you, it's not so easy! ( well , at least for me , or else i wouldn't end up in such a pathetic situation as now ) how i wish there is a 'delete' button or 'rewind' button in our life, that we can choose to remember things that we want, and the rest shall go to the recycle bin. but i guess, it is all this bits and pieces of memories, regardless whether it is happy or sad, sweet or bitter, that complete the whole jigsaw puzzle right?

i am starting to contradict myself. haha. anyway, i shall learn to let go. my dear friend who lend me this movie, a series of unfortunate events , we shall learn together :)

what you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened,
it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment.
and this is the moment that you can choose to make everything new.
right now.

and to add on, enjoy the moment! :)

portugal is playing against germany tonite. both are the teams that i like. argh!

yet another waterfall on father's day :)

Happy father's day =)

Been away from home for the past 3 years during father's day. and finally, this year, i am at home :) many people have been asking me, how do i celebrate this father's day? my answer, i don't normally celebrate father's or mother's day. to be able to be at home, accompanying my parents is the best gift in the world. and i think this is what all parents want the most.

today, allowing my dad to rest for a day, i took over the job as chauffeur. and we went to a waterfall. i just so love waterfall :) and i miss those weekends that we , one family, went picnic at waterfalls, beaches, and parks. those were the stress-free days.

yet another waterfall :)


playing with the water :)

Happy father's day to all dads.

There's one sad truth in life I've found
While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best.
~Ella Wheeler Wilcox

dad, thanks for everything and sorry for all the mistakes that i have done, and all those times that i made u worry,forgive me for hurting u.
i am who i am today, because of you.
And you're someone whom i look up to no matter how tall I've grown (though i am still shorter than u now :P )

dad,i know u will most likely not be reading this, but i really hope that you are happy always, and i pray for your eternal health.

New love

if u still haven't noticed by now, i have been posting a lot about mountain climbing, waterfall, runs........ lately. some of my friends even asked me, why this sudden change? why this sudden love for nature?

The beauty of nature. something which is so hard to explain till you experience it yourself. one year ago, if you were to ask me to go mountain climbing, waterfall etc...you would get a NO straight to your face. but now, without a second thought, the answer is YES :)

peace of mind.

its all i need.
its what city people need.
sometimes, the hustle bustle of daily life in the city can drive people insane.

i remember. during eos preparation month, it is the tranquility of the park that is keeping me sane, giving me the motivation to continue with the battle. the walks/jogs in the parks were the biggest luxury that i could ask for during that period. i love the parks and the company.

'If nature were not beautiful, it would not be worth knowing,
and if nature were not worth knowing, life would not be worth living.'

being able to appreciate all these wonders that mother nature has got to offer, i am truly grateful. who knows what will happen in 10/20 years time. human civilization and development have greatly threatened natural environment. but its inevitable. will nature still be as beautiful as now? i hope yes.

love. nature.

oh yes, happy birthday Meen Yee :)

runway

Life
Is like a runway
Long
With lots of hurdles
But eventually
It will come to an end

Driving on the highway allows me to have plenty of time to think, and to reminiscence.

When you feel that you are slow, you just need to step on the paddle, the car will accelerate.
And when you feel that it is too fast, similarly, you just need to step on another paddle, the car will decelerate.

How i wish that life could be that simple, that everything in life is within our control.

Unlike driving, we can't control the rate of our life. how fast things are. or how slow things are.

And unlike highway, there isn't any signboard along the route of life directing us to the destination we want. And most of the time, there isn't U-turn in life. once u have made you decision, you will have to stick with the consequences regardless whether you want it or not. This is life.

A friend once told me, he does something because he wants, he cares and he can. that is definitely an ideal situation . but sadly, that is not the case for me, many of times, i do something not because i want to, it is because i have to or because i am obliged to. this is life. this is my life.

klang gate 2

went up to klang gate again. a different group of friends. a different scenery. a different experience :) i totally love the pics that we have taken, its just like those u see in postcards, thanks to jh's pro camera and camera skills :D

and one day after klang gate, i took part in 16hours relay for life, organised by national cancer society of malaysia. i was very tired that night, but for some certain reasons, i ran like crazy in the dark. during the 30++ rounds of running around the track, i had a lot of time to think, about my future, about so many things that happened recently. somehow, i realised, things just don't always turn out the way that you hope. but to be happy in life, i must really learn to look at the positive sides. i guess it is so easy to say than to execute right.