Bad england

Bad england/chingland :P :P :P i shall dedicate this post to miss good england.lol.

more at : http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/talking_point/8220166.stm

which reminds me of a good example of bad england:

time: night
place: somewhere in kkb in yc's car
people involved: yc, me and miss good england

as the car stopped infront of the restaurant,

miss good england: yc ar, how do i EJECT MYSELF ar?
yc,myself: LONG PAUSE... ERRRR...
.....burst out laughing. hahahahaahaa

she meant how do i unbuckle the seat belt. lol. CD player mer...''eject''...hahahaa. sorry, miss good england. just thought it was funny :P dun worry, identity will not be disclosed to jaga your face. lol.

was webcaming with hamsap mus today to check out the fat cat that he cat-sit. that was when i realised it has been so long since i last use my webcam.
it has been so long.

sometimes, i don't understand myself. so please don't bother to.

anyway,
thank you, you, you and you :)

Sun

actually i am now supposed to be studying how reduced of sunlight exposure which lead to vit D deficiency,will cause osteomalacia. but i got distracted and attempted to edit a nice sunset picture taken at sutera harbour, kk.so here it goes.

May there be just enough clouds in your life to create a GLORIOUS SUNSET :)

i realised, i love msia more and more because of a simple reason, it's because of the sun :) lol. that's something that i found out after mount k trip. i can't live without sun. not because i want to prevent osteomalacia. lol. it's because i really enjoy the warmth of the sun. it feels good to be wrapped under the sun :)

joke of the day:
Q: what's the most common bone disease in malaysia?
A: osteomalacia !! lol.

Purpose

continuing from my previous post, isn't it a coincidence that imu is asking the pms students to write a narrative about their future plans when i was typing that last time. i guess, if i were asked to write that, i will really have a hard time coming up with something. this probably applies to most people.

what do i plan to do next? why do i want to do that?

i recalled asking myself why am i doing all these now? why am i here? what do i hope to achieve at the end of the day? why am i here in the world?

what is the ultimate purpose of life?

the answer will differ from person to person. the other day, i was looking through some facebook group set up in memory of a person who just passed away. there are just so many positive comments/messages left on the page. the person happened to collapse after his half marathon, and the coincidence is that he is of my age. at that moment, i just wondered, what would people write to/about me if the person is me? have i achieved anything in life that is worth mentioning? have i touched anyone's life in this 22 years? to me, it's like a report card, and all the people around you will be writing on that account of what you have done in your life.

the other day when i was at relayforlife, i saw a very meaningful message on a board. normally there's the date of birth and the date of death on a tomb.eg: (19.2.1930 - 20.7-1999) and what matters most is not the two dates, but it is the ''dash ( - ) " in between the two dates. this dash in between the day we are born and the last day of life represents the days we spent on earth, the things we have done in life, good or bad. how will my dash be next time? i hope it will be a good straight nice dash in between the two dates.

i don't know what are the answers for all the questions above. but one thing for sure is that i promise myself i will not make existence on this world wasted, i want to make a difference, at least to the people around me especially my parents. i know they have high expectations on me and the last thing i want is to dissappoint them.

i cant predict where i will be next time. i can't predict what i will be doing. i can't be sure whether i will be by their sides. but i will try my very best to make a difference in their life :)

You don't choose your family. They are God's gift to you, as you are to them. ~Desmond Tutu

i hope i am a gift to them :) which reminds me, time to call home!

Last weekend, i went to klang to visit my grandma and auntie. usual things that my relatives will ask since the day i entered imu are:

*what's imu ar? (lol! )
*when are u graduating?
*how many more years do you need to study?
*is studying medicine really that stressful?
*what do you plan to specialise in?

and of course, this time my auntie asked me the same questions again. and as a polite girl, i answered the questions patiently eventhough i have repeated it like n times already.

then while i was happily watching tv there, my auntie bombarded me some medically related questions. it's about her foot which is swollen occasionally, and i went ahead and press to check if its pitting or non pitting. she also complains of joint pain at the knee, which the doctor suspected of her having gouty arthritis. she was asking me how did the edema happen and how to prevent that from happening?

at that moment, i just stone there, trying to explain the different causes of edema in mandarin but i just couldnt find the correct words/terms. i thought i know the answer. but at that point, i just couldn't explain it out to a non-medical person. then how can i say that i have understood the concept? no way!

as albert eisntein has put it, ''If you can’t explain it to a six year old, you don’t understand it yourself.'' if i can't even explain such a simple thing to someone, then how can i say i have mastered whatever knowledge that i learnt all this while? oh man!

and last week was our seniors' graduation. i can't believe that in half a year time i will be graduating from imu bukit jalil before i continue on to clinical school. and in three years time i will be graduating from clinical school, which is when i have to put aside the protective shelter of a medical student and start to bear responsibilities as a doctor.

people around me are cracking their brain to choose the pms to continue for their clinical years. sometimes i really admire those who are so sure of what they want, so sure of their plans after graduating ; while i look at myself, unsure of anything at all, no plans after graduating and just choose to follow where the winds will bring me to.

''people take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they’re not on your road doesn’t mean they’ve gotten lost.''

—

sigh. am i thinking too much again?!

moment

live the moment.

can we measure how much a person thinks? is there a measuring tape sort of thing to gauge whether a person is thinking too much? one of my friends always said i think too much. do i? the answer is probably yes if compared to the me last time. so yup, i will try to think less from now onwards. sometimes, i wish that i could care and worry less.


''memories were fine, but you couldn’t touch them, smell them, or hold them. They were never exactly as the moment had been, and they faded with time. ''
~PS i love you~

i should just live the moment and stop complaining about what i ''used to have''.

Run

run run run.

i miss running.
just in the previous post, i said that i will stop running for at least a month until my ankle is fully recovered.
and now i miss running.
i have the ''kaki gatal'' feelings and really just feel like taking my shoes and go to the park and run.
but i didn't.
i used to be stubborn and continue running despite of my ankle injury.
thus all the sufferings during the mount k hike.
i learnt my lessons.
so i will be patient, at least a month until it is less painful.

i think 4 years ago, i wouldn't imagine myself saying this : i miss running. in fact, that time i hated running a lot, especially the 2.4km in napha. blah, out of the 6 stations, i hated this a lot. you will see me complaining if there's PE on that day, because it will mean another 2.4km running. when did i start to love running? i think it's after i entered imu, where there's a very nice park nearby, plus the fact that i do not have much entertainment, i slowly pick up running.

i love the feeling of inhaling the fresh air in the park after a whole day of nerding in the room,of fresh air brushing through my hair. it reminds me of the beauty of nature and surroudings.

i love the view of beautiful sunrise when pull myself out of bed to run in the mornings ; of the view of beautiful sunset when i run in the evenings. it reminds me how i should start and end my days with a sunshine-like smile.

i love the sight of old people playing tai ji, of small children cycling in the park.it reminds me that i am not alone.

i love the feeling of feelining my heartbeats, of listening to my breathsounds. it reminds me that i am still alive.

from running 1 round , 2 rounds, 3 rounds, i have slowly built up stamina and took part in a few distance runnings.

Orange Run 08
9km
My first long distance run, but i didnt really take it seriously as half of the time we were busy taking pictures :P

Klang pacers' 12 oct 08
12km
The first run that i have taken seriously.

UPM charity run March 09
5km
i was one of the top 25 !! :)

Klang pacers' half marathon June 09
21.9 KM
my first half marathon !

this is not the end of my running journey. i will never stop running. i think only fellow runners will understand why do one runs. they are those people who gone through consistent trainings, people who put themselves through the sweats and pain, BUT deep down inside, know how GREAT it feels.

my old running shoe which has accompanied for easily a 100km. thankyou for the journey and may you rest in peace :)

the underutilized new shoe. the baton has been passed on to you and don't worry, i will be bringing you out to the park very often, SOON.

One thing that i learnt from running is that, you will never know what is your best, as you continue trying, each time, you will be surprised at the results, that you have improved each time. that's the reward. it has proved to me that i am able to do something that i have never imagined myself doing.

"Ask yourself: 'Can I give more?'. The answer is usually: 'Yes'."
-Paul Tergat, Kenyan professional marathoner

and with each step i take, one step, two steps, small or big steps, i know, deep down, i will reach the finishing line. and at the end of the day, i can say: i made it! and at that moment, you will realise, it's hard, but it's not impossible :) i know, i can make it too this time!

P/s: i have a date with someone to complete a full 42km marathon when we are 42 years old. and i know we can do it :)

Back!

i am back from KK :)

and thus celebrating the last part of P21KK -- prom, 21km, and our mount K hike.

it's a transition, something that i will remember deep in my heart, i would not say its a good one, but it's a transition that i've learnt a lot. and of course thanks to the GREAT company :)

the pics for kk that i have compiled ( pardon me for having so many of my pics in the album, coz i compiled it for my parents to see :) )

KK


and the journey of P21kk that queen has compiled :)

P21KK

some random things:

i've watched 3 movies in less than a month time, which is like more than the number of movies that i have watched last year.

Transformer: megan fox is hot wei! i know i am supposed to transformed after the movie, but sorry, i guess i am slow in things, but as i always put it, slowly but surely.
The proposal: we watched it in KK Growball cineplex ( what a name !! ) just because we have nothing to do. a-not-too-bad comedy , but never sit beside someone that laugh so loud to the extent that it will embarass you :P
Harry potter: i was once a potter fan, but during this 6th movie, i was trying hard to remember the story line throughout the movie. it's about time to read the series again!

i am going to stop running for a month, at least, to rest my poor ankle.

i feel grateful, really really grateful for the friends that i have.

and last nite, i feel really happy for something. it's not that hard afterall.

as queen put it, it's about time. and yes, i know it too. thanks for whatever that you have done for me up at the peak of mount K :)

i wanted to type out what we did in sabah, but i guess it's good up in my memory.i am starting to miss sabah already, to the extent that i dream of it two days ago. haha. or at least i miss the good times we had there.

awesome sunset that we saw on our way back from mount K.
i miss the sunset, and the people that i shared it with :)
quoting queen:the sun doesnt blind you, only makes things clearer. i think i am clear now.